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new journal [02 Nov 2004|10:23pm] if you didn't know, i got a new lj username: www.livejournal.com/users/naturalexponent right-o.

at work [02 Nov 2004|09:29pm] Barbara Boxer is an idiot. So is everyone who voted for her. Hope Kerry wins. America needs it. Forget being blindly partisan. right-o.

to my love [22 Oct 2004|01:00am] Happy 2nd Anniversary, my sweet Jaymie :) It's been two wonderful years with you. Thank you for everything. I'll try my best to keep you happy from now until forever. I love you so much. <3 right-o.

ow [14 Oct 2004|06:57pm] [ mood | devious ] My back is in intense pain.. Walking to class was a bitch today, and so was walking back.. That's beside the point. It just hurts so much. It's pretty crazy that my birthday's almost here already. It doesn't even feel like it's been a year. My concern is that I feel so old.. just physically speaking. I'm always hurting somewhere, and I never have energy. Maybe it's because of my damn sleep schedule, but who knows? It doesn't really matter.. my birthday's usually just another day for me. All I care is that I'm with my passion flower :) frustrated by an unstoppable moron. 8 chapchaps | right-o.

just so i can remember.. [13 Oct 2004|09:42pm] [ mood | relaxed ] I love this song! right-o.

[13 Oct 2004|08:52pm] [ mood | touched ] New e-mail.. A package.. FTD? Don't they send flowers? My parents sent me a Build a Bear for my birthday.. I feel like crying.. right-o.

today, plain and simple. [11 Oct 2004|10:42pm] [ mood | sore ] I didn't think today was going to be a good day.. Jaymie and I started feeling sick last night, so I ended up not going to work, and I didn't even get to school until this morning. And even when I got here, instead of doing the homework I didn't do, I kept falling in and out of consciousness on the couch. The strangest things happened to me while I was there. I knew I was a wake but it was a kind of nauseous and dreamy state, and I couldn't get up no matter how hard I tried. I thought I saw Christian and Ari, although I knew Christian was at work and that Ari was asleep. As a result, I missed my first class and barely made it in time for Italian, which I couldn't miss because I had a quiz. Needless to say, my quiz sucked. I didn't know any of my vocabulary :( Anyway, I ended up sticking around for Stats lecture this time *YAWN*!!! and I saw Brandon outside waiting for his class. It was cool seeing him, and we talked about how stupid stats and probability were. Well, here's where the day looks up.. I bought myself an ipod! An ipod mini! I was gonna get the regular one, but the people at the store just gave me a bunch of bullshit, and I wanted a pink one anyway. This way I don't have to buy a freakin 30 dollar cover for it, and it's also more fashionable ;) haha.. I also started Muay Thai today, and it was the craziest workout EVER. As soon as Ari and I entered the classroom, we began 10 pushups, 10 jump squats, 10 pushups, 100 crunches, 10 pushups, 100 side crunches, 10 pushups, 100 side crunches, 10 pushups, 100 hip raises, 10 pushups, followed by stretching. OMG. Not to mention the actual kicking and punching. I feel sore already, but it's a good feeling because I know I got a proper workout. I'm getting tired and I need to study so I'll end it here. One thing that pissed me off today: As I was walking to class, I saw Ryan, but he was a bitch and ignored me. Thanks. 6 chapchaps | right-o.

Zach Braff, you bastard. [14 Sep 2004|12:45am] [ mood | tired ] You made me cry my eyes out. I finally saw Garden State with Jaymie today. I went into the theatre expecting a lot. This movie's been hyped up since long before its release, and everyone's been saying how good it is, never with a reason as to why. Now that I've seen it, I realize it's not some amazing constant, uniform to each viewing, that's present in the film. Instead, I think the film reaches out by providing something that everyone can relate to. That's what makes Garden State so special. That's the brilliance of Zach Braff. There's nothing extraordinary about it. It's the ordinary that makes it so universal. It didn't change my life, no. Rather, I felt like it was my life. Allow me to explain... In the film, Andrew Largeman talks about being homesick to a place you cannot go. I'd lived in the same home for nearly 15 years when I graduated from high school and my parents left to move to New Jersey. I was going through a really difficult time, dealing with legal matters and entering a new era of my life: college. My environment changed drastically, with my moving onto campus and dealing with life without my family. My home, my place of refuge, is no longer one to call my own. Even if I were to go back there, someone else lives in it now, and most of the house has been redone. Sometimes I feel so damn homesick, and it hurts, a lot. There's nothing I can do about it though. Others can enjoy the freedom of their college life and just go back to the familiarity and comforts of home as they choose. I have no home to return to. I can go to Jersey, but it's more foreign to me than even my own dorm room. As of now, that home of my own really is an imaginary place. I keep imagining all the times I got back home from school, relaxing or taking a nap, and spending countless hours in front of my computer. I felt just so comfortable... and secure. It's depressing to think I'll never feel that way again. Later on in the film, Andrew relates the topic of home again, saying that he has finally feels home with Samantha. For myself, despite the fact that I'm stuck in "homesickness limbo", I'm amazingly lucky to have Jaymie. I'm not trying to make some corny reference to force a connection between the movie and myself. I started tearing during that part of the movie, and once the credits were rolling, the waterworks came and I cried, holding Jaymie. I don't have a home to go back to, but my source of strength and comfort for over the past year has been Jaymie. She has provided a home for me, not only within herself, but a physical home at her own house. When it seems that all the problems in the world are weighing me down, I find that I feel at ease with her. I can forget my anxieties, hold her tight, and be in the moment. I still feel homesick for that which I'll never experience again, but I'm more than happy to accept that I've been given an amazing new home, richer and more comforting than I'll ever know again. This entry is dedicated to Jaymie, and all that she's been and done for me. Garden State is officially our movie :) 2 chapchaps | right-o.

ridealong.. [13 Sep 2004|11:49pm] Yesterday, thanks to REM, I finally got to go on a ride-along. Originally, we were scheduled to work out of Carson AMR at 10am, but we ended up moved to a different shift in LA at 12:45. So REM and I left to go to the LA AMR at around 11:40 from Jaymie's, thinking that we'd get there pretty fast, but we met some traffic along the way because of an accident. We weren't sure if the people involved in the collision were injured, but REM being the good EMT he is, decided to pull over to see for sure. They all seemed okay so we left pretty quick. Anyway, so we got there around 12:30 and kinda just prepared for the shift. I got to see all the workings of the ambulance, helped change the O2 tank in the rig, and just got familiar with it. After all that, we would've been able to leave on time at 12:45, but REM's partner didn't even show until about half an hour later. Needless to say, we weren't very happy with the dude from the start. He had some funny name like Po Shun (not being racist or anything), but I guess he calls himself Rick... Once we FINALLY got going, after waiting for Rick, who took his damn time, we got a call to head over to Dodger Stadium. I was getting kinda excited cuz it's the first call I get to experience, and it's at a unique location haha. It took us forever and a day to get there though, cuz Rick didn't really know how to get there ::shakes head:: I think I'm being too negative about him, but I guess I don't really care :P When we got there the next day (jk), there was an older lady who had dislocated her hip. Her husband had Alzheimer's, and they'd been waiting there for a while. The first thing we had to do was help her to pee.. It's not like some horrible experience, but the one problem I had was that it really smelled. It was a mixture of urine and a particular feminine smell.. haha.. I'm kinda lazy right now so I'll just sum up the other whopping TWO calls real quickly: BS drunk guy who didn't have shoes, and an IFT for a woman who wanted to get her leg chopped off. We spent the rest of the shift just sitting around near Culver City, and I was able to get some sleep on the bench in the back of the ambulance. Even though the lack of calls was disappointing, I'm just glad to have finally gotten my ride along out of the way, so I can get my cert and all that. More updates later, too tired.. 1 chapchaps | right-o.

[28 Aug 2004|10:27pm] sad day. 1 chapchaps | right-o.

shit abounds [21 Aug 2004|01:15am] I wish I could be glad to see my parents, but I can't. It's not so much them, but the circumstances surrounding their visit. I have to go to court, and it's not like I have anything to be worried about, but it's a hassle, it's expensive, and I have to miss class to go there. I don't have a suit with me, my room is a mess, I have no clean clothes, and I'm missing a lot of documents.. In essence, this coming weekend/week sucks. The worst part of it all: I dropped my phone down an elevator shaft at the end of my shift tonight. If it's an emergency, call me at 267-7813. Try not to, because you'll scare Odin, and he's jumpy enough as it is. 1 chapchaps | right-o.

awwww baaaaaby!!! [20 Aug 2004|10:59am] On August 19, 2004, Jaymie and I became the proud owners of an amazing little guinea pig, (or cavy, if you will) named Odin. :) He's a bit nervous and scared, but he's in a new environment and had a stressful day yesterday. I'll take pictures later on and post them :D His cage has a name too: Valhalla.. Still need to buy toys and more fun things for placement within Valhalla. So far I've fashioned a ghetto little hideaway by cutting a shoebox in two. You'll see.. Ari helped me out by providing sheet metal and cloth so I could make a little tube/tunnel for little Odin. I'm just waiting for lunch, so I could feed him fresh greens.. Sad news just in.. my grandpa just went into surgery after going to the hospital two days ago for an emergency I'm not too sure about. But he couldn't even talk to me on the phone that day, and I feel horrible for not being able to visit. Apparently it's some kind of heart surgery.. He's already had bypass a few years back, and so far the outlook doesn't look good. :( I have to see him.. I'll never forgive myself if I'm not able to do so.. 3 chapchaps | right-o.

at work [21 Jul 2004|09:50pm] Oh dear dear livejournal, As I’m sitting here at work, I’m overwhelmed with frustration. I’m frustrated with the insolent, loud, rude kids. I’m frustrated by not having wireless access tonight. I’m frustrated by working 4 hours in which I could be sleeping. I’m frustrated with 8-5 class. I’m frustrated with lawyers and court and legal proceedings. I’m frustrated about money. I’m frustrated from lack of food and sleep. I’m frustrated with life. So what’s new? There’s always something. Usually there’s a lot of things. It just seems that whenever I’m getting over one thing, another thing just pops up in my face and says, “fuck you, asshole, take that!” Thanks so much. I’ve had a chronic headache for the past week or so, which kind of sucks too, don’t you think? I don’t want to sound like some whiny complaining bitch though. Hold on. Yeah, so, I just finished talking to Casey. He’s a cool guy. What also sucks is that I have to pay some housing, but I can’t because the housing office is open after I leave for class and closed by the time I get back. On the bright side of things, I’m excited about the prospect of being an EMT. It’s what wakes me up in the morning and keeps me going through the long day. Unfortunately, I’m plagued with so many other concerns. Most people in class are pretty cool. I thought the class was going to be overrun by vicious premeds but most want to get into fire and go onto being paramedics. There are a few of the premed variety, but with the exception of the two Jewish guys in class, they go to other colleges and don’t like UCLA. Yet they take classes here. Yeah, you be hatin’ cuz of your blindly instilled school pride, but yet you still come here. Nice. UCLA EMS just walked by us. Cool. I gotta go pee. Stream of consciousness. Anyway, that’s it for now. Just to clarify though, I’m not updating directly onto LJ from work. I’m just typing this up, and I shall be copying and pasting later. Ciao, il mio amico. Now I have finally copied and pasted, a whole week later. Today is 7/28, despite the entry date of 7/21, which was when this was typed. :P right-o.

ouch [14 Jul 2004|09:06pm] Interestingly enough, my mouth doesn't hurt as much as I thought I would. It isn't as bad as most people make it out to be.. The only part of the procedure I was aware of was getting an IV put into my arm and as soon as I closed my eyes, it seems like the next moment I was being awoken and the procedure was done with. It felt like I had gauze all up in my mouth even in the front, but it was actually my numb lower lip/jaw haha. So I was dripping blood from my mouth everywhere because of my numbness and I have spots of bright red blood on one pair of pants and I got some on the kitchen floor, but got that cleaned up. So yesterday and today I spent spitting out and swallowing blood. My dad keeps feeding me porridge and I'm like nooo stop lol. I woke up this morning and it seemed like I'd healed up, but as the day went along and I started swallowing, I guess that caused more bleeding. To make it worse, I sneezed through my mouth, and that hurt like a bitch and I think it's bleeding because of that too. In other news, I got a new laptop, and I'm typing on it at this very moment! :D The only problem is that I can't increase the resolution above 1024x768.. and even though that resolution is fine, some fonts look too big while others look just right.. The inconsistency is kind of annoying. Whatever.. I'm thankful for what I have :) 5 chapchaps | right-o.

scurred.. [12 Jul 2004|11:59pm] I'm getting all four wisdom teeth out tomorrow. I'm kinda scared I guess. Actually I'm pretty good right now. Usually when I have something like this looming, I have that feeling of a big burden on my chest. Right now I'm kind of apathetic.. but I know when it actually comes around I'll be shaking and nervous haha. Oh well, I'll be happy when it's over with. I hope my jaw returns to normal :D I haven't had a normal jaw since sometime during junior year of high school *sigh* On a brighter note: oh wait, nothing bright going on in my life. -_- Remember, Jesus saves. ;) Ad Maiorem Dei Gloriam! 3 chapchaps | right-o.

to God [09 Jul 2004|02:02am] sorry, God. for everything. [Jesus Walks] God show me the way because the Devil trying to break me down [Jesus Walks with me] The only thing that I pray is that me feet don't fail me now [Jesus Walks] And I don't think there is nothing I can do now to right my wrongs [Jesus Walks with me] I want to talk to God but I'm afraid because we ain't spoke in so long 2 chapchaps | right-o.

work and reading [06 Jul 2004|05:21am] Work tonight was the worst night of work ever, in that I was falling asleep during the early shift. That's my lively shift. :\ Anyway, it took me about a shift and a half to finish The Da Vinci Code. One word to describe it: eh. I thought Angels and Demons was better. Angels and Demons was more predictable, but more thorough, with a plot that moves along much more smoothly. The Da Vinci Code has its slow parts, and I noticed a lot of loose ends. Having read those two books, I don't think Dan Brown is that good of a writer. He has interesting ideas, but they involve mixing intriguing fact with targeted damning fiction. More on this later. I am unbelievably tired. 2 chapchaps | right-o.

i'm such an awesome disease [17 Jun 2004|04:02pm] What kind of disease are you? iluvyuri: iluvyuri is caused by monkeys. iluvyuri: Can't sleep, clowns will eat you. To cure iluvyuri, listen to every album by the Beatles, backwards. Name? right-o.

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dizzam [11 Jun 2004|06:15pm] I'm utterly amazed at the number of people who, in college, still don't know what direct objects and indirect objects are. How the hell did you get in? Lo non capisco. Allora, io ho l'esame d'italiano finale domani! Devo studiare, ma sono molta stanca.. yeah whatever. I'm gonna go eat now. But when I get back, it's time for more burnination. right-o.

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